Right now, I feel so frustrated. I’m bursting with ideas. Everyday, I come up with some fantastic ideas for an awesome brand or product. I try to lend out my great ideas to clients but lately, I’ve been keeping them to myself. Is that selfish? I don’t think so.

However, I feel like I can’t do everything and there is no one thing that I feel overly passionate about. My sewing projects lay unfinished. My jewelry supplies lay in a box. My paints, papers, and canvases collect dust on the shelf. What shall I do?

This week, I’ve been working on a book. Then there’s been my exploration of graphic design. I even researched iTunes distributorship for some of the songs I’ve recorded.

I’m no genius, but I do feel like I’m of a special sort. Part creative, part manic. This manic episode hopefully will lead me to gold. Or silver at least.

I haven’t taken my stroll to the pool to work in my book, fleshing out ideas and words. It’s a little breezy. Maybe the wind will blow passion, drive, motivation, and brilliance my way. I won’t bank on it though.

Interestingly enough, I talked to Derek Sivers, formerly owner of CD Baby, last evening on Twitter. This is a man who has the success that most envy but who is led by creativity and simplicity.

Maybe I need to simplify my thoughts, scale down these cranial outburst. I’m tired of saying maybe I can be a trapeze artist, or write children’s books, or do graphic recording like I said I would. It’s just too many things that I could do. How can I channel this into something wonderful?

I can’t help but to remember the premise of The Alchemist and come to accept that I’m right where I need to be. Maybe I try too hard. Perhaps while I’m working, it will hit me. My ultimately fulfilling desire. My life’s work. The thing that will not only satisfy my creative side but feed my bank account. (Yeah, nobody wants to go broke while working so hard!)

I’ll figure it out, just like I’m trying to figure out everything else. Let me grab my pen and pad, and walk down to get my daily dose of sunshine and find my diamond.